Alhamdullilah,my son is healing well...

..i've settled down,after all the worries and sadness i went thru yesterday..we reached raffles hospital around nine in the morning..we had to register and pay a deposit..i was in such an emotional turmoil..fear and pain began to settle in..my son,however took everything in his stride..no word nor sound of complain from him..i was told to change into a sterile garment,they allowed me to accompany him into the op theatre...the nurses fluttered around him like butterflies..so friendly and nice,gave him an elmo toy to distract him..soothe his nerves i guess..compared to firdaus,i thought i needed the distraction more...all i did was look at my son and held his hand,no one could ever imagine how scared i was to let him go..and in the end,i had to...they wheeled him into the op theatre..i was shaking..i kept telling him how much i love him and how very brave and good he is..they told him to count to 20 and they put the gas on..slowly he went into slumber..but his eyes were looking right into mine..i saw the fear he had..confused by the flurry of activities surrounding him...i was controlling my tears..i didn't want him to see the sadness in me,until he fell into deep sleep..i walked away..my heart sank as i left the room..one of the nurses gave me a light touch..assuring me my baby was in good hands.
i changed into my clothes and ran straight into my hubby's arms..and finally,i cried..and cried my heart out..letting go of all the bottled up tears and pain..i felt like my heart was ripped so bad...thankfully..my aunt was there..giving us so much moral support..firdaus wanted helium balloons and annoyingly,they didn't sell it at the hospital..we(my aunty jah and me)..took a cab to KK..just to get him 3 lovely get well balloons..which was all worth it coz when he woke up from the op,he was so happy to see the presents and balloons all around him...he vommitted a lot of blood after that..but the doc said its normal...we let him sleep again until he was given the thumbs up to go home around 5pm...so we're happily at home,syukur to Allah that everything went well and smooth..my pain hasn't really gone away..it will take a while...the star of it all would be..my SON,MUHD FIRDAUS...because,not once did you complain or whine..not once did you cried or demanded..masyallah..you are such a good boy...i'm so grateful to Allah..i love you my baby..get well soon..