sometimes..things aren't so perfect....

..I'm going thru a rough patch..now..with certain issues in my life..i can't possibly be letting it out on my blog coz it's too personal..its just that,sometines,you pour and put your heart and feelings to a soul..and sadly,you don't get back what you have given..i know,that's always the case they say..and worst still..they say such hurtful things to you,without even taking a step back to put em'selves in my shoes..and how it practically sliced my heart into thin painful pieces..i can't believe my ears that i was hurled such mean,painful accusations..it hurts becos i wasn't the cause of the problem..honestly,i wasn't the root of it all..and sadly,the person who throw such accusations is someone so very dear to me..
..why did god let us meet if there wasn't gonna be any trust in our relationship..why
do you still wanna be near me..around me at all..if all you do is hurt me without thinking twice???..i wanna walk away from you..from everything that we had or shared.
i don't think i can take it any longer...first there were others of the same blood..and now you follow suit..maybe i'm not worthy of your trust..or anything else.should i still continue with this..obviously its not becos of you alone,there must be other deeper love and commitment that we shared...they say "blood is thicker than water"..and boy,do i live for that word now..i seem to have lost it all with you..can't seem to find any reason to smile..or find warmth within..can i forgive you???..i don't know..then again..i could be foolish..but..I won't forget..EVER!!!!
I'm continuing becos of Allah..he is the reason behind everything we do..and insyallah he will take care of my heart..becos forgiveness is always within HIM...