updates...

..i'm feeling the pinch,financially i meant..coz half of my teaching income goes to paying for my maid's salary and levy..oh god,please let it be well worth it..yes,i have my domestic help already,lest you think i'm sooooo lucky,to be a stay home mum with a maid at my disposal anytime,think again..i had to go thru so much tests before i got one,who is working pretty darn well now..lets start my sad story..maid no.1 arrived 3 weeks ago,i liked her straight away,and amazingly,we shared the same birth date..has 2 years of working experience in BAHRAIN..so solat and aurat were never issues..you see,i put down the clause that my maids have to pray and cover the aurat whenever my hubby is home and when we go out..i mean,i already have my fair share of sins to answer for..i can't afford extra load rite??...i really liked her,very smart and worked with loads of cow sense..i brought her shopping splurging a hundred bucks to buy all her needs..i wanted her to be comfortable and happy working for me...2 weeks went by without a hitch till one day she asked to make a call to her family back home in indonesia..she is especially close to her granny,who was her guardian since been born..so we let her make that unfortunate call..HUGE MISTAKE...she started getting homesick and cried for days..pleading with me that she wants to go home coz she really misses her family..i tried to ignore her nonsense,being patient and all..afterall,this is her first job in singapore..but then,i couldn't play dead to her dumb,black face daily..so i sent her packing eventhough my heart really was unwilling..really approved of her..too bad laaaahhh..so maid no.2 arrived 2 days later...one look at her,i knew straight away she was underage..claimed she was 23..more like 17,really..what!!did these morons think i was born mins ago???...i asked her to be frank with me..if she wants to stay or return home..coz i really had enuff of homesickness..i mean,i employ a maid to fuss over me,not the other way round rite....she didn't really answer me..so i gave her some time to adjust,i had to buy footwear and some personal stuff..coz these maids,urgh!!..they really come unprepared at times..again,i had to train her in housekeeping..and guess what,the next morning,when i woke up around 10plus..my Firdaus told me..'Umi,kakak is missing!"..i jumped outta bed only to have found a letter on the floor of my spare room explaining her departure..apparently,she was forced to work by her agent coz she owes them money..another idiot!!....by then,my blood was really boiling..i mean these morons..who the hell did they think they were..so gungho to leave their families to earn and then when they arrive here,they decided...tadaaaaa,its not meant to be..i wanted to give up by then ok..but i felt sorry for my hubby who has paid upfront the agency fees and its no small amount i tell you...maid no.3 is here to stay i hope..she's doin quite ok..i'm not speaking too soon..coz we never know what goes in their grey matter..i'm just so glad i'm not out working..i can't trust these weirdos..i'd rather send them to childcare than leaving them with a maid at home...i have come to learn a lot..we can't be too nice..there must be a clear line between us the employer and them..i make sure i tell her what she has to do daily..i hardly engage in small talk unless its really important..other than that,as long as i don't abuse her,she should be grateful to have me as her employer.Now i understand fully well,why some employers can be really stern with their maids..end of my maid story..on a lighter note,i am 33 weeks pregnant already..and feeling like a huge hippo..all cranked up and grumpy..imbalanced hormones i guess..and its really annoying that i'm unable to go out as much..i get tired easily..but yesterday,was a wonderful Sunday..my 2 boys and maid were sent off to my moms..so that hubby and me could have an early wedding anniversary dinner..my 7th year,alhamdullilah,,and the best gift is our baby no.3...you know,i haven't had time alone with hubby for a long time,2 years plus..so i really was so delighted eventhough we couldn't really go far..we had dinner at Seoul garden TM...walked around a bit,bought stuff for our 2 boys,as usual..and the best part was..hubby buying me a ring i was eyeing at the Swarovski boutique..i;m a sucker for rings that have charms hanging on em'..and it comes in 3 pcs,which can be worn alone or stacked...he really caught me by surprise when he offered to buy it as a gift...i really least expected it..i mean,i had to be realistic here..we need money for the birth,we have a maid to account for..so we really have to budget well...nevertheless,he really made my day..thank you so much my love,i'm so over the moon...our evening was filled with lotsa smiles and laughter,holding hands and kisses,loving gazes into each others eyes,loving touches here and there..oh how i miss all that..i really was basking in his sole attention on me..and he hasn't lost it,the passion and love he has for me..you know,sometimes after being married for many years,we assume things change,but last evening,i felt all was rekindled magically..i managed to buy 2 gifts for my 2 boys,its supposed to come from sibling no.3 for both elder brothers..a transformer car for Big brother Firdaus(he has been eyeing and wanting this toy) and a Fisher price book for Big brother Umar...the gifts are safely hidden till the arrival of their younger baby brother..hahaha,Firdaus assumes there's a mall in heaven where all babies lived before arriving on earth..from Umar he received the speed racer car..so he is really excited to find out what sibling no.3 has in store for him...and i'm sure hell excited to give them the pressies..we went back to fetch the troop from my moms in the end,couldn't surpress our yearning to have our 2 boys around us again..did feel kinda weird going out without them...they were sooo happy to see us..and that my pals,having our kiddos running up to us and smothering us with hugs and sloppy smooochies,is the BEST FEELING ON EARTH..PRICELESS..going out on a date with the hubby brought my spirits up..its important to set aside time to romance each other once in a while...it'll take some time before i get the opportunity to do that again..and i really do look forward to spend time alone with my soulmate soon..till then..please say a prayer for me to deliver a healthy baby soon enuff....