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...i'm still lazy to upload pics on my blog,don't ask me why..just plain lazy..anyway,the Eid thingy still in the air..i went for my 3rd round of visiting yesterday..and i really wanna let this out today,desperately..i went to visit a house and my realative,well,lets call her K...was around..which surprised me coz i wanna avoid the gal,she is always indecently dressed when we visit thus making my husband awkward and me disgusted...anyway,she was unwell it seems...and came down the stairs,wearing a light pink nightie,bra-less...with cups that probably measures a huge D...and she's short and thin..can you imagine!!!...her nipples were so out there..hubby didn't even bother to look at her..totally absorbed with my Umar..i saw the whole thing..she said hello and went straight to the kitchen...i was pissed man!!the mother didn't even wince..she had an adult brother in the house,my god,talk about AURAT man!!!..and Ilmu and shame!!!..and what kind of Muslims are these people..highly educated in duniawi...very kekurangan in akhirat..i'm no angel..but i definitely have some degree of shame and i know how to dress when guests are around..i was so affected with what had happened,i lost my appetite ok...i really didn't like what was going on..so i decided,this years gonna be my last raya visit to that house...cari dosa aje you know..and when we had a light conversation,she was all about wanting to have a baby..and not being able to have one yet..i mean DUH!!..look at your lifestyle...so sadly against the teaching of Islam..you want Allah to grant your doas..but you go against his teachings...and so materialistic..i mean,come on..who wouldn't want expensive,branded stuff..even i do..but i gotta look around me..and realise that there are so many others who are in dire need of help..alhamdullilah to what we have..stop chasing these undesirable dreams..its all bout the "IT" BAGS,SHOES,MAKE-UP..CLOTHES..WHATEVER...isn't all that so superficial??she's always been a dreamer you know...so influenced by the western world..the way she writes totally reflects on her wants & needs...god,,why are these people still in dreamland..is it becos Allah has given them wayyyy toooo much rezeki that they forget their roots..the real reason why we get extra $$$ ..is to help the poor and needy..not to splurge and splurge for no reason..there is no harm in buying once in a while...but tell me when a person has countless of PRADAS..LVS..GUCCIS..does she really need A CHANEL 2.55 badly....????...astaghfirullah halazim...i reflect upon her character..and i feel scared for myself..hopefully i do not drown in my unimportant wants...if this is the way,i might behave should i have way too much dough,then alhamdullilah..i'm happy with what i have...i don't want to have too much excess that i would forget my roots...we used to be so close when we were young..had sleepovers..shared our diaries n secrets..but amazingly,we turned out to be worlds apart...my doa for her,one day to get some form of hidayah..and change to be a better muslim before everything is too late...this is an example to us all...