My baby boy's first day of nursery...

"dearest everyone,no one told me that no matter how GUNG HO a mother is..no matter how gutsy or brave or confident she is..that the first time her baby leaves her to go to school,ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE..emotionally,mentally...very draining..you see,i experienced all that on monday,8th of jan 2007..from the day he came into this wolrd..till now,it has only been ME,the abah,or the granparents that took care should i go to do some partime work,so for the first time,i had to leave him with a stranger i know nothing about,the only consolation was good feedback that i gathered from others bout the school..we have spoken a lot bout school,preparing him for 2 weeks intensively,not knowing..i should have been included too..so we woke up on mon morning,,anxious to get him ready for nursery..he woke up smiling and running to me for a hug..he bathed and changed all by himself..i made the hubby take photos..i cooked him lunch and then,we left to send him..i was feeling so restless..worried that he might not like the teacher,or school,or friends...i worried that he would cry..but he didn't..he followed all instructions by the teacher...and he waved to me in all smiles...my lil' baby boy...i turned and the tears came down..it hurt so bad to go.

the hubby decided to cheer me up and brought me to Haagen Daaz for ice cream but my mind and heart was yearning for my son..so much worries..i felt like i wanted to run back to his school...my hubby tried his best to put confidence in me that he was happy and safe in class..when we got back to fetch him..the teacher told me that he was such a good boy..very obedient...my heart nearly burst in pride..i should have known better than to be so insecure...we went home and gave him his lil' surprise..we bought him yummy cake for a celebration..that he began his first day in school with happiness and goodness..he was so excited to gobble the cake...next day,he went on the school van all by himself..again the min the van was outta sight,i cried..today is day 4 since he started school...i know it will take awhile before i become more secure...i'm glad that i'm fortunate enuff to go thru this...becos it only makes me love and treasure his childhood all the better...and my son..I couldn't be more proud of you sayang...i will be there to support and guide you along the way with blessings from Allah,insyallah...seeing you grow,into this wonderful young boy...Umi is the most luckiest mother in the whole wide world....love you with all my heart...may Allah take care of you,each time you leave my hand to explore the world......